3 days ago
It was about 4th grade when I became hyper aware of my body and what it looked like. How people would comment on it and point things out. It may have been the ridicule at home or it may have been the day one of my classmates called me "thunder thighs" during our swimming unit in gym. Either way, that's when I started to feel extra self-conscious about my body and hated to be noticed or looked at.
You wouldn't know this looking at me now, but between 4th and 7th grade, I was one of the tallest girls in my class. I started wearing bras and could no longer shop in the kids section. I had to wear women's clothes and had curves that most girls my age didn't. I also had to buy bigger clothes that most girls my age didn't.
Here's the rub though. The models that would wear the sizes I wore, didn't represent what I actually looked like, but after seeing representation of your size a certain way, you just believe that's what you look like too. Ever since then, I've considered myself plus-size. Large bottoms and jeans in double digits... But you know what I realized today? Just because I have a large bottom and thick thighs, doesn't mean I'm fat or plus size. For so many years, I've just looked at the sizes I have to buy and how that puts me into a certain "category." Dude, I'm so sick of that!
Yep, I've got a booty, but I'm not fat because of it. I just don't fit the image the world has set forth for what women should look like. I definitely don't feel ashamed to not look like that, and I also don't need to believe I am the women I've seen in ads that wear my size clothes. (Not that there's anything wrong with that.) I'm so unbelievably sick of beating myself up for not upholding society's ideals of the female body, no matter the image burned into our retinas for the past 70 years. I just wanna look like what I look like on any given day and feel healthy and happy.
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And PSA, don't comment on children's bodies, good or bad. (Or anyone's for that matter!) Keep that ish to yourself. You don't know how those comments are going to affect that poor baby's psyche.