2 months ago
It’s my least favorite holiday of the year today: Father’s Day.
I haven’t spoken to my dad in maybe five years. I’ve lost count. And before that, we had another, longer bout of silence that was only broken by my reaching out on Facebook because I saw him in my People You May Know Section. I asked him to give having a speaking relationship another shot on the terms that we NEEDED to start fresh and not talk about the past anymore. I knew he wouldn’t be able to uphold his end of the bargain but I tried anyway. It failed. My last text to him was the waving bye emoji. I think I still have that thread saved in my messages.
My family is fraught with trauma. I used to get so sad I’d never know what having a dad felt like. But nowadays, I support my mom all the more. She picked up his slack since they divorced when I was 9 (and probably before that, too) as a single mother of two children. I have so much respect for her. Happy Father’s Day to all the single parents out there. You’re superheroes. ❤️ #feraldiary